Sunday, June 1, 2014

I'm Not Dead!

Wow. It's been awhile. A lot longer than I thought, actually. I'm sorry for not posting reviews regularly, and not updating at all in the past 1.5 months.
   One reason for the lack of reviews is that constantly being in PearlWorld is really awful for my marriage. I read what Michael writes about how he expects women to act, and I realise I'm so far from that, I may as well be another species to him. Then parts of me wonder if he isn't as full of bananas as I think; what if he's right? Honestly, I see why people buy his stuff. Because of the undercurrent of "Well, what if he really DOES speak for God?" I needed a break to clear my head, and my marriage.
   The next great thing is that I found a job! I'm assistant night manager of a burger place/ice cream parlor. I work about 47 hours a week. I love it. I have never felt so competent, intelligent, and necessary as I do when I'm at work. That's been putting a strain on my marriage. Because when I do something at work, it's noticed-either a kid is happy that they got their ice cream, or a co-worker is grateful that I helped with their work. Yet, at home, on my days off, I can clean the entire house, do laundry, and cook enough to last for a few days, and all my husband notices or comments is: "Oh. You cleaned off the table."
   For me, being a stay at home is so very unsatisfying. I'm so grateful to find a job that I'm good at. Plus having an extra income is nice. Part of me feels guilty, because I am so happy without kids (and without church). I look back a year ago, and I can't believe how much I've changed. I'm so much happier with who and where I am than I was back then. Thank you for all of you who supported me during this transition.

   As for reviews, I will post them Tuesdays and Fridays. And if I'm going to skip a post, I will let everyone know.
  :)

4 comments:

  1. Glad you are doing so well! I was worried something was wrong.

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    1. No, things aren't terrible. Just everything was so overwhelming, I had to cut out some of the things that were dragging me down. Turns out, Michael Pearl was one of them!

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  2. Hi Lady!!!!! Glad for the positive swing :)

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    1. :) Hope things are positive for you, as well

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