I apologise for not posting the book review. But my life has taken an interesting turn and I've been processing.
Regular readers know that I had a sister who died last September. What I didn't say is that I have another sister, technically. Mom gave her up for adoption right after she was born. I've known about her since I was 18, and have been in contact with her (infrequently) since 2009.
When Justin and I first got married, she told me that she was pregnant and wanted to give the baby to us. Her adoptive mom was dying of cancer, and persuaded her to keep it, but not after months of us preparing and planning for this child-right on the heels of my miscarriage. Needless to say, this broke my heart and I haven't talked to her since.
She contacted me last week, saying that she knows now that we are sisters, not cousins (as her mom insisted I tell her. She took that secret to her death bed, and it was only recently that it was divulged). She has questions that she wants answered, and she wants to have a relationship with me, as sisters.
I don't know what to do. Part of me wants a sister again, even if we didn't grow up as such. And part of me is still so angry that she changed her mind about the baby. I have so many mixed emotions, and so little idea of what I want. I feel like she deserves to have her questions answered. I just have no clue.